So, I'm sitting home alone in our big empty house and all I can think about is how much I love these two boys and how much I MISS them! Nate has now been in Minot for 2 months and is loving it. He is working really hard, it being his first year teaching and having NO time to prepare for the school year. He has been coaching and doing work for our landlord, which has been keeping him crazy busy. I was looking at pictures of my two boys and all I could think about was how much I love them. This picture was taken at the beginning of this summer. We were all together, and happy, and had no idea what the future held. It's crazy to think about how much our lives have changed in the last few months!
James is on a trip with his grandparents this weekend. Steve and Vicki took him to MSP to see Vicki's parents and go the zoo and mall. This is the first time we've been apart, and it's killing me! It's only been 13hrs and I am fighting the urge to go lay down in his room and cry hysterically (OK, so maybe that's a tad dramatic) Me, being the frazzled mom that I was this morning was careful to pack everything on my list for James to take the the cities. I was pretty sure I had packed EVERYTHING, until I got a text from Vicki wondering where I put the diapers..... I had completely forgotten to pack diapers! They weren't even on my carefully constructed list!
These are two other people I miss terribly, my mom and sister. I hate that they live across the country and that I am lucky to see them once a year. I am so insanely jealous of people who have their mom, sister, or both living even within driving distance. It sucks feeling so isolated from family. We are so lucky right now to have Vicki coming up and staying with us a few days a week. It definitely eases some of the loneliness for family. I am counting down the days till we get to see each other again.
This is probably the biggest thing on my mind. This is our home. This is the picture of our home taken when we bought it almost 2 years ago. I talked with our realtor yesterday, and I think we are going to put our house on the market and officially make the move to Minot. I am so terrified, you have no idea. Putting our house on the market means so many things. It means saying goodbye to Grand Forks, our home for the last 4 (7 for Nate) years. It means saying goodbye to my job that I LOVE. It means saying goodbye to Tracy, our fantastic daycare, who will NEVER be replaced. She has been so wonderful to James for the last year.
What is also means is change. I am planning on applying to work at Minot's hospital in Labor and Delivery. I am nervous. I haven't had to apply for a job in 4 years. I feel plagued by irrational fears AND rational ones. I am terrified of moving out of my comfort zone. I have definitely become comfortable here. I put a call in today to a daycare that was recommended to me by a high school friend. I was ecstatic to receive "not a no." I was expecting an "absolutely not! Don't you know everyone in Minot is looking for daycare" but she said she needed to check her numbers and she would be back to me. So, we will definitely be praying about her.
Nate and I had been frustrated with the churches in Minot. We had NO idea where to go. We grew up Wesleyan, and have been attending a Covenant church in GF, neither of which are in Minot. A couple of weeks ago we tried out an AG church, and decided it wasn't a good fit for us (Nate had never been to an AG church before, and was a little shocked by it.... not was he was used to) Last week we decided to go to First Baptist church in Minot, and so far we have been feeling really good. The pastor's sermon was honest and engaging. The people were friendly. I'm really hoping for a church to call home. Since we don't really know many people in Minot, a church family is something we would really love.
So if you are the praying sorts, we would definitely appreciate some coming our way. We have a lot of changes ahead of us, and a lot of big decisions.
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